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Honestly, I'm slightly confused by your question and your subsequent responses did not alleviate my confusion. Are you referring to actual bad dreams, or are you asking if people have had bad things actually happen to them?
I've had many bad dreams, some more real than others.
I've had many bad dreams, some more real than others.
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PO3 Aaron Hassay
its as if real life i must admit is all unreal joke
put my 18 year old dreams up on a hill overlooking a mountain 40 years old postponed dead military stress took them all and put them in a parallel galaxy I thought I was hovering to remind me of what I thought I was a true patriot risking all following every order honor commitment courage till the end now broke jobless dealing with things I never could imagine landlords and humans who say thank you for your service then jump to judging your work history your credit score and making assumptions knowing you are desperate and and not doing well
maybe it is all mental
4 years ago I could not walk without a crutch
The Navy Army Transfer USMEPCOM conducted 1998 22 years old to get out of some insane navy ship I was getting ill from was medically disqualified for Spine Musculoskeletal and Psych failing yes a mental health exam interrogation in mission valley san diego driven their by my Army Handler Sergeant Recruiter. They sent me back to Navy Ship and never sent the ship the records. I only recently knew they existed and were given to me in the last few years.
A bit to late all those illness problems noted were real yet not completely disabling allowing me to suffer through the rest of my enlistment never treated.
the recruiter recruits believing what they say the propoganda pamphlets they displayed
my dreams 18 years old look bright as a dream in the day
I wake up and find the VA gave me a homeless housing voucher that no landlord in san francisco will use because of the beaurocratic paper chase time delay.
I just got lied too led on for 3 weeks landlord said he would wait till the va inspections of the apartment and all the many pages of paper work are complete sent between various offices as I wait in stunned silence hard to really understand reality
Then the landlord conveniently says he gave the place to a well to do couple who brought the money on the door step that same day sweet.
My heart dropped just another day of normalcy for me.
I get abused for housing couch surfing a gay man will allow me to stay.
I laugh because I would sleep in a car or a rv but I have neither because they took my drivers license for not being able to afford a few parking tickets and impounded this car I had over 4 years ago sweet
I once was engage 19 years old I in a program I was recruited I was given the carrot that was allowing me to commission until shit hit the fan in some crazy stupid mind numbing fucked up experiment run on a navy ship I was assigned made me loose my bearings. Then they discharged me honorably because I drank the coolade well 26 yo but ill into desperation joblessness homeless confusion sadness no family to rely on
All I can say is when I finally found out about my dad 28 29 I found out he was a vietnam combat vet for the first time.
America tried to move on real quick as if it never happened.
You will never here of the kids these soldiers had upon return before they became ill due the exposures of death that they would slowly succumb to year after year family after family going into states of homelessness and the VA went MIA all of a sudden on accident I suppose.
But I was that kid sad a bit wondering how things got this way and who I was and the stress that will add to a young childs life before he is even 10 years old
Then I wish I was friends with or inner circle of the president because I know he would have had Vietnam Combat Friends who became incapacitated and had kids and feel a bit of understanding
put my 18 year old dreams up on a hill overlooking a mountain 40 years old postponed dead military stress took them all and put them in a parallel galaxy I thought I was hovering to remind me of what I thought I was a true patriot risking all following every order honor commitment courage till the end now broke jobless dealing with things I never could imagine landlords and humans who say thank you for your service then jump to judging your work history your credit score and making assumptions knowing you are desperate and and not doing well
maybe it is all mental
4 years ago I could not walk without a crutch
The Navy Army Transfer USMEPCOM conducted 1998 22 years old to get out of some insane navy ship I was getting ill from was medically disqualified for Spine Musculoskeletal and Psych failing yes a mental health exam interrogation in mission valley san diego driven their by my Army Handler Sergeant Recruiter. They sent me back to Navy Ship and never sent the ship the records. I only recently knew they existed and were given to me in the last few years.
A bit to late all those illness problems noted were real yet not completely disabling allowing me to suffer through the rest of my enlistment never treated.
the recruiter recruits believing what they say the propoganda pamphlets they displayed
my dreams 18 years old look bright as a dream in the day
I wake up and find the VA gave me a homeless housing voucher that no landlord in san francisco will use because of the beaurocratic paper chase time delay.
I just got lied too led on for 3 weeks landlord said he would wait till the va inspections of the apartment and all the many pages of paper work are complete sent between various offices as I wait in stunned silence hard to really understand reality
Then the landlord conveniently says he gave the place to a well to do couple who brought the money on the door step that same day sweet.
My heart dropped just another day of normalcy for me.
I get abused for housing couch surfing a gay man will allow me to stay.
I laugh because I would sleep in a car or a rv but I have neither because they took my drivers license for not being able to afford a few parking tickets and impounded this car I had over 4 years ago sweet
I once was engage 19 years old I in a program I was recruited I was given the carrot that was allowing me to commission until shit hit the fan in some crazy stupid mind numbing fucked up experiment run on a navy ship I was assigned made me loose my bearings. Then they discharged me honorably because I drank the coolade well 26 yo but ill into desperation joblessness homeless confusion sadness no family to rely on
All I can say is when I finally found out about my dad 28 29 I found out he was a vietnam combat vet for the first time.
America tried to move on real quick as if it never happened.
You will never here of the kids these soldiers had upon return before they became ill due the exposures of death that they would slowly succumb to year after year family after family going into states of homelessness and the VA went MIA all of a sudden on accident I suppose.
But I was that kid sad a bit wondering how things got this way and who I was and the stress that will add to a young childs life before he is even 10 years old
Then I wish I was friends with or inner circle of the president because I know he would have had Vietnam Combat Friends who became incapacitated and had kids and feel a bit of understanding
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maybe I should Pay attention to what they are saying... but I just ignore them...
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It is very interesting but now I get to experience as a child being sort of bummed out target of being poor living in shelters and sharing rooms in houses while other kids had seemingly a dad and stability around me. I did not know my dad was a vietnam combat vet. I guess the VA was not keen on any outreach programs to notify depenedents of vietnam combat vets who went destitute struggling because their father became ill from vietnam service injuries after service.
Then my adulthood will be marked by strong poverty as my mom passed away watching me struggle with some crazy things I had to deal with and get mental health issues from on the ship like a dude trying to have sex with me to just give you an idea of many other insane stupid things I had to deal on the FFG.
Regardless people say thank you for your service in their nice suits and ties as I sit sort of confused 40 years old where did all my dreams go as a young man 18?
I was a varsity athlete. I was also awarded meritorious e1 e2 GreatLakes Chicago 1994 before I was assigned that ship.
Then the VA says thank you for your service service connected me anxiety 0%.
They know I have been dealing with poverty for over 2 decade averaged out on my SSDI income records show.
I am on SSDI already for anxiety disorder $900 is my only living standard.
I am stunned.
I wonder if I am alone???
I was engaged 19 before crazy crap on that ship started happening.
Then my adulthood will be marked by strong poverty as my mom passed away watching me struggle with some crazy things I had to deal with and get mental health issues from on the ship like a dude trying to have sex with me to just give you an idea of many other insane stupid things I had to deal on the FFG.
Regardless people say thank you for your service in their nice suits and ties as I sit sort of confused 40 years old where did all my dreams go as a young man 18?
I was a varsity athlete. I was also awarded meritorious e1 e2 GreatLakes Chicago 1994 before I was assigned that ship.
Then the VA says thank you for your service service connected me anxiety 0%.
They know I have been dealing with poverty for over 2 decade averaged out on my SSDI income records show.
I am on SSDI already for anxiety disorder $900 is my only living standard.
I am stunned.
I wonder if I am alone???
I was engaged 19 before crazy crap on that ship started happening.
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