PO3 Aaron Hassay try the things 1LT Sandy Annala has recommended, but continue to work your VA claim. Never give up now that you have finally started on your road to your own recovery. Welcome back brother and please remember that there is a vast difference between e-9s and real Master Chiefs; some of us really want to coach and help our Sailors. If I may be of any assistance, even as a sounding board, please feel free to use me. Gene (connection req sent)

I have called the crisis line 2 times and i think talked with the same lady. I was adjustting to a new med and I think a bit flighty and not really calm and definitely sad unsure and anxiety of what is all happening...but they just listen..say it will be ok.then give you another number to call...then of course they can not change your financial position..when that is the one thing the largest thing that keeps you under a rock like this getting sexually assaulted at times just not to be behind a dumpster...now i will really know what it is like to be a girl who got sexually assaulted or perverted on by older creepy men who would see a young man who has lost he way..not a drug addict but confused jobless and in need of housing...and this is the reality....

so what the hell..

The VA the whole system just seems made for well adjusted people who can have an even keel. A psych issue takes you off course with anger quick thoughts dillusions of being subjugated to attack ridicule and predjudiced against...again all memories..my earliest as an adult junior enlisted around a lot of bullies in deck..not much a fighter myself..caught off gaurd by the hotheads.eventually assaulted by the new command master chief..all before I was 22..I had to learn to fight ...that was a big big jumping block in my head. I had been in 1 fight as a kid and lost when I was possibly 10 years old. I was easily intimidated, when i was moved to rough neighborhoods the only white kid in black or latino neighborhoods, who kids would actually throw rocks at me and my sister and brother, because when my mom left my dad, when she was about 24 years old with 3 kids, she had no education, she never knew my dad would become an animal and she was forced to flee with no childsupport and no support from anyone for our saftey and hers and we moved into womens shelters and then bad neighborhoods sharing rooms. My dad by the way ended up being discovered to be a 3 year combat vietnam veterean who eventually after incarceration and a life of substance abuse problems would be acknowledged 100 percent service connection. But because none of us knew this when my mom left, and I am not sure my mom knew he served because vietnam vets were not really proud of what happened all the time, and he indeed is a secretive person, when I finally met him in my 30s for the fist time since 10 years old

SSGT,

Man I need a service animal. I just went to the VA and finaly got in the medical system and getting my second appt in a week. I think the VA has really opened up and more accepting. I want to be trusting. I went there with no ID but with some paper that was printed that showed who I was. And they worked with it. I don;t know what your problems are with the VA, but brother maybe you can try again.

I am also in the middle of a disability claim that is really an open and shut case, if only they followed there own VA disability Adjudication RO manual for administering claims called the M21-1MR. I read regs all the time. Infact a major reg in that manual puts the bar very low in presumption as to benefit the veteran for a disability claim. I in particular do not need that low presumption. And the other part is that the only way they can deny a disability claim of injury in service is if you were breaking the UCMJ and that was the cause of your injury. PTSD is a tricky thing. And when I was serving not really a known term that was freely talked about. Heck I only started knowing about it in recent conflicts through news. Stress Injuries happen in many ways. Check out COSC COMBAT OPERATION STRESS CONTROL and COSR COMBAT OPERATION STRESS REACTION DOD medical internet searchable information. COMBAT units even in training which is basically always are under a high amount of stress and this COSC COSR give both the RISK FACTORS and the SERVICE CONNECTED STRESS INJURY OUTCOMES and PROVIDES the MUCH NEEDED NEXUS in great detail. It is mathmatecal. I will say this. All brave young men and women who served are in one way or another my brother and sister. it is a simple thing. I want to find all of us a place of safety. I am fighting searching hoping and dreaming of what it will be like wanting some of my own. So I just ask out loudly and hope the angels are listening As they are the ones who know what is really going on and what happened

I know a guy who runs an organization called 'Wags 4 Tags'. and I will get you his number so you can call him. Man, you do not how much I get you in this sense.

I told that cat not you let you find out it was your guarding angel. The bigger guy.

Cat or dog..would be great

Thanks Mark bro.

You seem like a squared away guy. I appreciate a guy who has it together and still has compassion. I am just not sure what I am anymore. I am on ssdi and i waited 16 years of hell in pain depression homelessness anger confusion pushing people away even to the point where my mom passed away and people have innuendoes she worried her self to death over me..her first kid..and i have a deep internal bond...with her..and that point when she passed..and i cried and drank ..i still did not talk ..and my mom never really knew what happened..what i am recalling now..about what happened and how a young quite kid who was a high school cross country track varsity athlete eating sort of healthy went to bootcamp right after graduation that summer and won the best recruit award upon graduation and given a pay grade advancement proving i was solid..then within a few years...attatched to a smallish navy combat ship..during mid ninties during the downsizing period..and budget cuts..and still given orders required for same 100 percent deployability and readiness maintained for conflicts etc...and I guess my personality changed quick..and i got a stress injury...somehow..and then that e9 attacked me ..and it was all downhill from there mentally ..and my fiance dumped me within that following year..and then i started yelling and getting really defensive at my young lovely mom who i cared about loved deeply..and she would try to calm me..and i know now..i can still hear her voice of bewilderment as she was caught of guard by this now young man who was angry at the world and his mom started to take the heat....and it just spirals...damn.. man .reality i need a break..man

SSgt (Join to see) has made an amazing comeback from an impossible situation. I look to him for guidance in situations like this. I spent 4 months at the inpatient PTSD program in Menlo Park, CA that the VA sent me to all the way from Phoenix. At Menlo Park they had detox programs for those who had substance abuse issues (I was a drinker) before they started therapy. Yoyu will have your disability rating raised to 100% for the entire length of your stay since you are locked down and unable to leave for work. They also set up post discharge care, housing leads, and other programs.