Those Four Words: My Transformation Through The USAF

TSgt Melissa Post — Tue, 08 Aug 2017 10:16:02 -0400

When I was a young, I remember my step dad taking our family to an air show in a nearby town. Enthralled by the different types of planes, the loops and barrel-rolls; I decided I wanted to be around airplanes. Every weekend we would drive past this small airport and I would crane my neck to see if one of the hangers were open so I could just get a peek at those planes once more. Years later, when I was in seventh grade, the movie “Pearl Harbor” came out, reinforcing my desire to work with planes. I remember telling my best friend, "When I grow up, I am going to join the Air Force."

At the time, it was just one of those things you say as a child without really meaning it. Only when another friend said, "I could see you joining", did I realize that I had to either do it or call my bluff. I decided the best choice would be to tell them I had changed my mind. I didn't think I could do it. But this meant that when I graduated high school, I had no plan. So after graduation, I ended up working in part-time jobs as a waitress, clerk, and finally a cashier. Due to the my inability to support myself, it finally became apparent that I was becoming more of a burden to my parents than anything else. They finally gave me my ultimatum. "You have a choice", they said. "You can either go live with your father or you can join the military." If you knew the relationship I have with my birth father, you would know that I would choose living with him when hell froze over. So, I chose the lesser of the two “evils” and decided to join the military.

The next choice I had to make was which branch I’d enlist in. We narrowed down my options to the Navy or the Air Force. I am terrified of going underwater and drowning and would rather be shot than drowned. This ruled out the Navy for me (plus there was nowhere to practice swimming). My older brother was already in the Air Force, so I had an "in" as far as information about what it was really like. Decision made - I was "off into the wild blue yonder" as our song says.

After the decision was made, it was time to meet my recruiter and take the ASVAB (Armed Services Vocational Aptitude Battery). After the test, the proctor took me outside the classroom and asked what I wanted to do in the Air Force. I said, "Something administrative. Why? Did I do bad or something?" He told me "You can do anything you want. You made a 92." I was shocked! I had been out of high school for about four years. Most of the other students around me failed, and some of them were still in high school or currently in college. Upon receiving my test scores, my recruiter asked if I wanted to become a linguist. Of course I did! I went to Dallas, TX to take my next test, the DLAB (Defense Language Aptitude Battery) which I barely passed with a 105; passing for the Air Force was a 100. My next step was waiting for a job opening to drop. I was in the DEP (delayed enlistment program) for a year. Finally, the phone call came. There was a job opening for me and a date to ship off to basic: April 19, 2011.

I will never forget the day I left - trying not to cry as I surreally told my mom and stepdad goodbye. It wasn't like I was really leaving. After all, I was still in Texas so technically I was still at home. Our group drove to Dallas from Waco. We spent the night at the hotel and I tried to calm my nerves. This was my third or fourth trip to Dallas...but this time, I knew I wasn't going back home the next day. The next morning I woke up early, rushed to get everything ready and get downstairs for breakfast. I wanted to do everything right. I found the kids that I connected with on the way down and we stuck together. After breakfast we got on the bus for our five hour drive to San Antonio. We arrived in the afternoon and I expected sergeants or TI's to jump on the bus and start yelling at us but they didn't. After a few hours of boring in-processing, my group and I got separated. I was now on my own. My first encounter with a TI was when I was escorted to my dorm. Her name was Senior Airman White. She was a skinny African American girl about my height. She saw I was wearing the Air Force t-shirt my recruiter had given me for joining. It was the nicest shirt I had at the time which was why I wore it. Little did I know then, but it was also a sign recruiters had with TI's letting them know to be hard on a particular person. She yelled in my face, "Who told you to wear that shirt?"

"No one ma'am."

"No one told you to wear that shirt? You just wore it on your own?"

"Yes ma'am."

"Take it off and turn it inside out. You are not in my Air Force yet."

"Yes ma'am."

Off came the shirt, I turned it inside out and put it back on. That night I remember thinking to myself, "What did I get myself into?” as two tears silently ran down my face. It's not like I had much of a choice though. This was where my life took me. I was either going to get through this or die trying.

Fast forward a bit: I would cry almost every night because I was so stressed and couldn't figure out how to deal with this new life I threw myself into. I had to learn how to work with females who got their feelings hurt at the slightest "insult", encourage females who just couldn't make it through one more night, think for other females who, sometimes to this day, I wondered how they made it that far in life (this coming from a pretty sheltered girl). Loyalty was another thing I learned a lot about. Loyalty is not just given. It is earned. I remember the first time we really screwed up as a flight and our TI, SSgt Glover, was mad at us. The females were saying things like, "I feel like I just let my dad down."

"Psh, I don't." was my reply. I didn't care if he was disappointed in me. Who was he to me? Just some guy who was in charge of making sure I stayed alive during this training. That is, until I found out he cared about us. I was very sick one week to the point that I lost my voice. My marching and drills were just not on point like they should have been. He halted our flight and came around to where I was standing. He bent down and shoved his binder inches from my face. "Trainee Chiles, what is the matter with you? Are you sick or something?"
"Sir, Trainee Chiles reports as ordered." I squeaked, "Yes sir, I am." I don't know if he really expected that response. He told me that we were going to be marching by the clinic in a bit and I was to stay there and get seen. I could feel a tear welling up because I knew then that he cared. Unfortunately, I was unable to wipe the tear away before he saw it. "Is that a tear I see running down your face? Get that off of there!"

"Proceeding sir, thank you sir."

From that moment on, my loyalty belonged to SSgt Glover. He told me to stay in front during our morning run, you better believe I stayed in front. He told me to yell at the females for being stupid, you better believe I was a mini TI.

After eight weeks of training, drills, classwork, sand, sweat, and grime, we finally graduated. I have never felt so much pride as I did during our Airman run. We sang jodies with our TIs as we ran by our parents - the perfect picture of fitness. Then came the day we got our Airmen coins. I can still feel the heat on my toes through my black patent leather low-quarters. I was in the front row too, no one to block the sun from my feet or my eyes. I remember waiting for my parents to come tap me out of formation. I was almost panicked because I didn't see them coming. I didn't want to be one of the last ones. Then I heard it. Those four words that I had never heard my parents say, "I'm proud of you."

Although I have had a few times that I wished I could go back and undo some of my mistakes, I really think that life forced the right decision on me. Before I joined, I was very sheltered. I am the youngest of eight children. I always had someone telling me what, where, when, and how to do things. I never really had to think for myself until I got to BMT. If I had undone those mistakes, yeah maybe I would still be in Texas, working at a desk job somewhere, and possibly hating the job. Instead, I am here. I may not like the monotony of my job now, but I have traveled to some places I wouldn't have otherwise. I have tried foods I had never heard of before, I have learned a little bit of a new language. But most importantly, I have made a life for myself.

And they are proud...of me.

Response by SSG Diane R. made Aug 8 at 2017 10:42 AM

SSG Diane R. — Tue, 08 Aug 2017 10:42:59 -0400

TSgt Melissa Post thanks for sharing this great anecdote! You're a great Storyteller. ♡

Response by Sgt Private RallyPoint Member made Aug 8 at 2017 10:50 AM

Sgt Private RallyPoint Member — Tue, 08 Aug 2017 10:50:19 -0400

TSgt Melissa Post Great story. Thank you for making my day, and thank you for serving!

Response by SGT David A. 'Cowboy' Groth made Aug 8 at 2017 10:51 AM

SGT David A. 'Cowboy' Groth — Tue, 08 Aug 2017 10:51:18 -0400

Thank you for the story Melissa.

Response by MSgt Mark Bucher made Aug 8 at 2017 5:08 PM

MSgt Mark Bucher — Tue, 08 Aug 2017 17:08:30 -0400

Reminds me of those days back at Lackland in 1982...

Response by SGM Private RallyPoint Member made Aug 9 at 2017 4:27 AM

SGM Private RallyPoint Member — Wed, 09 Aug 2017 04:27:55 -0400

TSgt Melissa Post Great story! Service to this great nation, no matter the reason, or path to joining is something few will ever understand, much less undertake. As SPC Jeff Daley, PhD stated, "There is a lot of men and women that are proud of you today". I am proud to call each and every man and woman that stood up, took the oath and performed their duty as my Brothers and Sisters.

Response by 1stSgt Jeff Blovat made Aug 9 at 2017 7:14 PM

1stSgt Jeff Blovat — Wed, 09 Aug 2017 19:14:17 -0400

That's a great story. I entered the USAF under the same sort of circumstances and it was the best choice I ever made. At first I was a First Sgt's nightmare. 22 years later I became a First Sgt. Strange how things work out eh? Good job.....

Response by SPC Diana D. made Aug 9 at 2017 9:25 PM

SPC Diana D. — Wed, 09 Aug 2017 21:25:18 -0400

I had some of those same feelings when I enlisted in the Army. I think everyone's first thought after meeting their DI's for the first time is "What in the world did I get myself into!!!"

Response by CSM Charles Hayden made Aug 10 at 2017 12:27 AM

CSM Charles Hayden — Thu, 10 Aug 2017 00:27:30 -0400

TSgt Melissa Post What a beautiful, well written personal tale of survival! All Rally Point members are proud of you and welcome you to our military community. CSM Charles Hayden, (Ret'd).

Response by CMSgt Rich Bates made Aug 11 at 2017 12:15 AM

CMSgt Rich Bates — Fri, 11 Aug 2017 00:15:18 -0400

Very nice write up.

Response by PFC Lisa McDonald made Aug 12 at 2017 2:30 PM

PFC Lisa McDonald — Sat, 12 Aug 2017 14:30:09 -0400

Great story of the life struggles that can lead someone to join and the transformational effect the military can have on someone!

Response by MSG Bob Metz made Oct 8 at 2017 6:38 PM

MSG Bob Metz — Sun, 08 Oct 2017 18:38:53 -0400

Growing up has never been easy...but that first moment you realize that have...you will never forget it...

Response by CW5 Jack Cardwell made Oct 27 at 2017 8:40 AM

CW5 Jack Cardwell — Fri, 27 Oct 2017 08:40:31 -0400

Great read !

Response by Lt Col Scott Shuttleworth made Feb 14 at 2018 5:32 PM

Lt Col Scott Shuttleworth — Wed, 14 Feb 2018 17:32:33 -0500

That was an awesome write up. You did well young lady. You are the picture perfect person for recruiting. The number one recruiter in the Air Force last year toppled all goals in an area that never really produced at all because he simply told his story. He has two pictures on his desk. One of him, his little brother, and his mom on the porch of his run down trailer home. The other picture is of him, his wife, and his children on the porch of their Base house. He simply says that is his life before and after the Air Force and then elaborates on the details. Great stories keep our Air Force alive. Thanks for the share.

Response by Col Tom Waugh made Mar 26 at 2019 3:37 PM

Col Tom Waugh — Tue, 26 Mar 2019 15:37:59 -0400

I grew as a person in the USAF -- served from 1964 through 1993. I had three tours in the Pentagon which is a challenge in itself. As a staff officer for most of my career, the transition to being a Base Commander overseas in the mid 1980s was the most rewarding and one I will always remember because of the people I served with. To this day I remember them -- their names and what we achieved together. When I see what this young woman achieved, I feel that the Air Force is in good hands.

Response by CW4 Craig Urban made May 26 at 2019 2:23 AM

CW4 Craig Urban — Sun, 26 May 2019 02:23:57 -0400

Blassings sadles. Racism.

Response by CW4 Craig Urban made May 26 at 2019 2:25 AM

CW4 Craig Urban — Sun, 26 May 2019 02:25:00 -0400

My take is Jane Fonda is a slut

Response by CW4 Craig Urban made May 26 at 2019 2:26 AM

CW4 Craig Urban — Sun, 26 May 2019 02:26:33 -0400

Guess I should come home. And run for congress.

Response by CW4 Craig Urban made May 26 at 2019 2:27 AM

CW4 Craig Urban — Sun, 26 May 2019 02:27:43 -0400

Best way to quit smoking is mj

Response by CW4 Craig Urban made May 26 at 2019 2:31 AM

CW4 Craig Urban — Sun, 26 May 2019 02:31:49 -0400

I ran 3 marathons in 1976-78. Smoking a pack of Marlboros a day. 3.54 chico. 3.19 San francisco. Paul masson 3.19. In the back of the pack. It actually was less than 3 hours.

Response by SSG Roger Ayscue made Oct 21 at 2020 11:37 PM

SSG Roger Ayscue — Wed, 21 Oct 2020 23:37:36 -0400

Melissa, this is AWESOME! You have a great story, and a great add on to it because you have done so much more since that day.
With permission I will use this with my Cadets.

Response by SPC Jim Johnson made Oct 22 at 2020 6:57 PM

SPC Jim Johnson — Thu, 22 Oct 2020 18:57:52 -0400

Written with pride that was earned and not given.

Response by Wayne Soares made Nov 7 at 2020 5:05 PM

Wayne Soares — Sat, 07 Nov 2020 17:05:10 -0500

Thanks for the share Melissa